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This morning, for some reason, “Flowers for Algernon” came to mind.

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If you haven’t read it, then – why?

Okay, not fair – maybe you’ve never heard of it. It’s a very well written short story (or is it a novella?) – about a retarded man (yes, I talk like that. I also use the masculine to denote the indefinite) who has an unspecified “operation” that turns him into – well, for lack of a better term, a super-genius.

SPOILER WARNING

The procedure was first tried on experimental animals, the most successful of which was a lab rat named – Algernon.

We watch his rise to dizzying heights of intellect and learning – but, just as he is outshining everybody, Algernon takes a turn for the worse; the rat slowly loses faculties, and eventually dies – and by the time this happens, our protagonist has started to see his own abilities disintegrating, as well.

This morning, as I was moving around like Uncle Joe at the Junction*, and painfully aware of my declining physical fitness, I was thinking about how “Flowers for Algernon” is a short metaphor for life, itself – we start out pretty slowly, and then – if given the right impetus – we find ourselves able to do things that we never imagined, in our youth; mentally and physically.

But about the time that we reach our personal zeniths, we realize that things have already started to fade – and we know that we’re going to continue to lose abilities and awareness, and that there is nothing at all that we can do to stop it.

So, that was this morning – Flowers for Algernon, in that context, was just another morality play – another way of saying the same thing, yet again. All of the ego’s tales end the same way.

But this afternoon, I’m taking it much more personally.

Just fixed a couple of bugs. I thought I’d done pretty well at it. But then the review comments started coming in, and I became aware – yet again – that my brain not only doesn’t work as well as it once did; it doesn’t work as well as the brains of those around me.

I am below average.

As a youth, I was called somewhat of a prodigy; the expected accomplishments never materialized, but then, what can you do with a brain that’s saddled by alcoholism, ADD, and laziness?

But still, I managed from time to time to shine.

However, the shine is gone; I’m not only dumb, but I’m walking around with a bit of a self-conscious fear that the folks around my know that I’m dumb, and that they are only being polite in not pointing it out – but I also suspect that they might be getting tired of it.

Now I’m just trying to make it through today.

If I do, then I reckon I’ll hit the couch after work.

And re-read “Flowers for Algernon”.

 

 

 

*if you’re not familiar with this reference – well, that’s Uncle Joe, and he’s moving kinda slow, at the Junction. Petticoat Junction!

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2 comments
  1. Gloria Gardner said:

    Jim, your posts sound so sad, are you goofing or really feeling this way? You are super awesome so get off the pity pot! I am 72, working full time and having fun and working out better than ever. The fact that when I get up I go through all stages of homo erectus as I go from the bed to kitchen for coffee has little to do with it. I miss you both. Love Gloria

    • GLORIA! So good to hear from you!!

      Hmmm….there seem to be some contradictory statements in your comment, Miz G 🙂

      Lemme see if I can wade through them…

      yes, I really felt this way yesterday. This morning, perhaps even more so.

      I am neither “super” nor “awesome”; I have documents. I am, in many ways, below average. (I’m a pretty good skier, though). I’m not sure that “pity pot” qualifies; I seem to be taking all of the necessary – or recommended- actions, and my understanding of “pity pot” is that it involves both an emotional state, and a lack of positive activity.

      I am very glad to hear that you are doing well, darlin’! Sounds great!. However, my father died at 67, so I don’t reckon I’m going to be doing that well at 72 – it’s doubtful that I’ll be doing ANYTHING at 72 🙂

      And don’t say “erectus” to a guy my age. We’re sensitive about that sort of thing 🙂

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